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April 10th, 2007

12:00 am - bad language included..... I am so FUCKING PISSED at my boyfriend right now I just threw up. Seriously. I get back from the gym (burned 600cal) and checked my facebook before I got on here he has TWO messages from his EX-GIRLFRIEND that apparently "cant wait to spend everyday this sumner with you, I LOVE YOU!" WHAT THE FUCK! Not only that but they saw eachother this past Friday when he went home to his parents for the weekend. Granted I knew about it but JESUS CHRIST! I had no idea they were still saying Il love you and shit. DOES HE THINK I AM FUCKING STUPID OR SOMETHING????? The worst part of all this is that today was his birthday and I treated him like royalty. (not that I don't every other day) GOT DAMNIT I AM SHAKING I AM SO PISSED OFF!!! I am already fasting this week but this just gives me even more motivation. Okay, on a good note I have lost 4lbs since last week and can fit into my FAVORITE pair of jeans (which will be put to good use this weekend) Today even though it was the (soon not to be) boy's birthday I succeeded in to eating and holding to the fast. So I am happy about that as well. Wow and I let the BASTARD go out with his friends tonight. Just wait until he gets home.... Current Location: (Soon not to be) home Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: 30 seconds to mars

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April 9th, 2007

04:03 am - Rant... Okay I know in my last post I just wanted my boy to come home but now that he is back I just want him to go away again! I know that sounds awful but its just alot easier without the pressure of him being around all the time. I feel like he is watching my every move, and he dosent even REALLY know about my ED. He just knows that I "used" to have a problem and I have some odd eating habits. My insomnia is getting worse, I try to go to sleep and all I can think about is how I need to go to the gym again, I already go twice a day! Whats sad is sometimes I give in and go just so I can go to sleep. I would tonight but its just so damn cold outside I dont want to have to walk across the complex! Current Location: home Current Mood: cold Current Music: Red Jumpsuit

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November 30th, 2006

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October 23rd, 2006

04:21 pm - newbe name:TRISH age:20 eating disorder type:anorexia with bulimic tendencies height:5'5 current weight:118 highest weight:127 lowest weight:89(at 5'5) short term goal weight:110 long term goal weight:80 medically diagnosed at 13 was just released from treatment therefore i am fatfatfat i will post pictures when i drop a few pounds and feel a little more confident I joined to befriend people like me that don't think i am crazy or have a problem that needs to be fixed. ALSO I AM REALLY NEW AT THIS JOURNAL THING SO BE PATIENT WITH ME PLEASE :) Current Location: texas Current Mood: determined Current Music: all american rejects

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